Back in 2012 I went on a hen party to Malaga ( a great one at that) and I will never forget it to this day (who doesn’t love a hen??). However it’s for many different reasons, most of them are great memories & ones I will always cherish , laugh at when I look back but it was also the moment I decided enough was enough.

Here is an insight to what happened………..

So we had set colours to wear for each night. However one colour was Yellow. Now at this point I was a size 22-24(no offensive to anyone who is this size or anything, once you are happy that is all that matters) however I wasn’t happy in myself and I remember the dilemma I had trying to get a yellow dress. The dramas!!! I searched high and low, even contemplated cancelling my ticket, I worried so much and it was all down to my weight.

How could I go if I didn’t have a yellow dress? (Looking back It didn’t even matter as no one would of said a thing)
I eventually had seen a dress on ASOS a size 24. I ordered it. I was over excited about the dress….this was when I felt a bit of confidence…you know when you buy something and you feel you are sorted now and need do no more??? That’s how I was when I found the dress.
I couldn’t even tell you how much it was (knowing me not much as I didn’t spend money on clothes back then)

So the dress arrived…… disaster struck….I had 2 reactions to that dress that day – that should of been a sign for me to not wear it. A client in my sister’s hair salon (Fusion Hair Design Cork) she actually thought I was winding her up and laughed. Innocently she didn’t mean any harm to me….but the hurt I felt it sticks with me.

It had to be taken in a bit (it was chiffon so I got more room in the 24 than I usually would of) so I brought it up to the dress maker. Once I got the dress back off them – I went up home (the same day), where my Betty Boo (my Nan – my nickname for her) was living at the time. I came up the stairs and said “well Betty Boo” she was in hysterics and said to my mom “is that for the stage” she thought it was a costume. Ha-ha. I laugh now I didn’t then. Poor Betty Boo meant no harm.

I didn’t have a choice….. I had to wear the dress. I didn’t want to let anyone down by not going.
Off I went on the hen, with a lovely bunch of girls. I knew no one really only the bride and my 1st cousin. I am a very outgoing person I would talk to the wall, although sometimes it takes me a while to settle into places (about 5 minutes) but I would always be self conscious. I think (half hope) all us girls are?

We got to Malaga and they said which colour we would wear the first night. Unknown to everyone I felt sick in my stomach. I was first to say “the yellow”. I just wanted it over and done with…. At the time I made jokes about it myself because growing up I went through my fair share of bullying regarding my weight (I’ll save it for another post). I kept saying mine is Like Big Birds- which to me it was.
To me, making a joke about my weight and I made me feel more comfortable? Maybe no one will understand that, maybe some of ye will, maybe some of ye do it now yourselves. It was my way of dealing with being overweight.
That weekend came & went & the yellow dress was set alight

Joking….but It was never to be seen again.
No one made me feel out of place and uncomfortable that weekend apart from myself and my own self consciousness. (Still so self conscious it doesn’t go away)
A seed was planted in my head

I didn’t have to be the funny , overweight girl who always made people laugh, the life of every party. Being to nice to say No to people. It was my time, my time to make something of myself. Everyone always asks why I decided to lose weight or change my lifestyle…… this was why……
That I couldn’t be 22 years old & over 18 stone, living this way. Comfort eating, not even caring what I was putting into my mouth. It was a rut, a routine.

I came home and I joined Weight Watchers. I think I lasted 1 week and I was fooling no one only myself to think me using all my points on crap foods was going to work. These plans work every plan works it’s how we as individuals chose to use the points, syns and calories.
That is when I decided to join EVOLUTION HEALTH & FITNESS, MONAGHAN RD Cork.
A decision to this day, looking back was the making of me.
I went down Day 1, as true as god, in a 2XL t-shirt from men’s section in penny’s, black leggings and runners. I was an absolute nervous wreck. Why was I doing this? Would I just turn the car back? I didn’t need to do this did I? Surely there was something easier, less uncomfortable & awkward out there for me?
I spent my first few weeks doing 3*30 minute sessions and following a strict food plan– well looking back it wasn’t strict but compared to what I was eating it definitely was strict. I cried, I was in agony, it wasn’t easy. I spent nights on the couch as I couldn’t walk down the stairs, trying to go to the toilet??? Forget it. My poor legs and arms were so sore, I’m sure I vomited 3 or 4 times in the first few weeks after training (this is normal don’t let me scare you)…… I wasn’t giving up. I wanted this, for me…… not for anyone only myself.
I kept at for the first 3 months. I was so determined I avoided events and Parties. Christmas came around in the middle of the 3 months. I had a choice , waste the few weeks id put down only to start again or else to see that this few hours of eating and drinking was not worth going through all I had given of myself. So Christmas 2012 it was limited. I didn’t overindulge. I was going to do this. I haven’t turned back since. I trained with them for near a good 18months in total.
Losing weight & toning up, getting the compliments. It became addictive, honest the feeling you get when your clothes are looser and people take time to say something nice to you, when you’re not crying or having a mini meltdown every time you’re going out because NOTHING FITS …. It’s worth it.
The First 6 months I was 100% but then you know yourself….. On it, off it. Its life! I never gave up! I dropped 4.5 stone by this point. I learned a valuable lesson. It doesn’t matter how hard you work in the gym if you have no control of what’s on your plate.
I then travelled to Australia In March 2014. I swore to myself I would not gain the weight back. You can imagine, I was a 24 year old girl making a HUGE step in her life. Australia thought me so much, not just health and fitness wise but about life (another day, another blog post).

I was kind of up and down the whole time in oz. Both physically- regarding my weight and mentally/emotionally – draining.
I might as well be honest about it. It’s hard to not gain weight over there. For me I was finally living out of home (I know I could have just moved out here Ha-ha) but I was making my own choices and decisions. (I blamed Mam and dad for me eating for years over the shopping they brought in ha-ha) Of course when I was down In Coles doing the shopping I was all about the crisps, chocolate, easy to cook foods for the first few weeks. Months passed it was up and down.

It was December 30th 2014 I said to myself You have 8 weeks to Donnas (my sister) wedding get off your bum and stop thinking because I lost weight already I didn’t have any more to lose. I suppose you could say it was only then I decided this wasn’t a diet I was going on…..it was not, it was going to be a lifestyle change that I was going to be in control of all the time, when I was off track it’s because I chose to be and that’s ok to once I got back on it.
Don’t you lose weight or change your lifestyle for anyone but yourself because take it from me It won’t work you need to want it, If you don’t love yourself enough to take control of your life then re-evaluate your life and how you feel towards yourself. Answer me this, Why don’t you deserve it? Why shouldn’t you give yourself 1 hour out of 24 each day? Let that hour be for prepping food, researching foods, exercising, having you time, going for a walk.
We forget that we have only one life, it is to be lived to the fullest so yes live but also mind yourself and your body after all it’s the only one you have. Mind you.
It was that day that I set up my 8 week weight-loss challenge on Facebook . Where I put myself out there for people to support and help me to stay on track for 8 solid weeks before travelling home for the big Day. I worked hard for those 8 weeks training myself in a gym twice day and eating freshly cooked clean meals. I posted on this page everyday all my meals and workouts my ups and downs…..I  reached target for the wedding and I was so proud. I WAS DOWN OVER 6 STONE. The page had exploded and it soon became a part of my life.
Little did I think 1 year later I would have 7000+ followers and that I would be a support system for others?
Between the Times I came home from Australia April 2015 and my holiday in September 2015, I had gone back to Evolution for 12 weeks but I was emotionally not able for it. My heart wasn’t in it. My 6 year relationship had just ended. I had to deal with it myself in my own way.
So I left once I did my 12 weeks maintained the same weight…….nothing to do with Evolution whatsoever. I am grateful for everything they did.
I then got a great offer to Train with John Morey in Ultimate Fitness Holly hill Cork and I did that for a few weeks, again couldn’t fault him in anyway shape or form. A fantastic trainer & motivator.
I realised a few weeks in I couldn’t train anymore. I just did not have the interest I had before. I was tired, drained and slowly falling back into ways I didn’t want to fall back into. I was dealing with anxiety and issues within my Life that I was avoiding.

I went off on Holidays with my family and out of 10 nights away I had 1 night out. Not the norm for a 24 year old.
I worked myself up so much I couldn’t enjoy it. I had gained back weight and felt crap (about a stone and a half). It was enough to make me feel uncomfortable in myself. Something I will say, losing weight is amazing but you don’t change inside. You are still the same person. Your feelings are the same. So if you’re hoping it will be the answer to all your problems it won’t, that isn’t me being harsh it’s me being real.
LOVE YOURSELF ALWAYS- NO MATTER WHAT THE SCALES SAY OR YOUR CLOTHES SIZE
I joined slimming world, to monitor my weight when I got back from holiday to try grab control of it again. I was going with my mom. Who needed that push too!
We went to the glen Group on a Monday evening – 5.30pm. I made a statement to my consultant (Lorraine- who is an amazing person) that I was sceptical of slimming world and that I didn’t believe it would work. I wasn’t long eating my words. I’m down over a stone (gained 5 for Christmas) by doing nothing other than following a simple easy do-able plan fit for every lifestyle.
Some of you reading this might say oh sure she was all about the personal training and clean eating – I was.
As I’ve said, all these plans work or else they wouldn’t be out there. It’s choosing what works for you.
I do plan to take up some training and exercise this year again because it is good for you not only physically but mentally. It’s healthy for our mind.
I am down 6 stone and 5 pounds. I’ve gone from a 22-24 to a 12-14

This is my story regarding my weight loss and why I started.

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33 Comments

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  2. A great read Sarah .. well done to you on ur blog and having so many followers .. You have come so far. You truly are an inspiration to Me and 7000 others keep up the good work xx

  3. Such a lovely read Sarah, you were so honest and that’s what people like. Can I just say I actually like the big bird dress ???????? You looked beautiful before, just even more now ❤️

  4. Amazing such an inspiration you make a great writer keep up the good work xx

  5. Fab sarah well done u should be so proud ☺
    great achievment x x

  6. A wonderful honest piece, you have a real talent for writing. Anyone who reads this will feel they are travelling on a journey with you. Best of luck with this blog. You have achieved so much in your weight loss journey. You should be so proud of yourself because you ar amazing ????

  7. Melissa Roche Sweeney Reply

    Amazing ???? you are so genuine and so real x a truly inspiring lady keep it up I love all your posts and this blog is brilliant ???? well done you x your are your own motivation and inspiration look how far you have come ????????????

  8. Enjoyed reading it Sarah I no it mightent of been as easy for me to read it as it was for u to write it….but for a girl ur age to come through so many obstacles….u are an inspiration……U shouldbe so proud of urself❤????xx

  9. Anne Dooley Reply

    What an inspirational story Sarah!! You have some will power!!! I.ve been following you since you were in Aussie.. Lost 2 st.on your clean diet… You.re so genuine & you say it as it is. JUST LIKE THE GALWAY PEOPLE!!!Ha. YOU GO GIRL & you have a very bright future ahead of you.. Best of luck, cause you.ve been through the mill… Anne..xx

  10. Your an inspiration Sarah. Well done. You are looking fantastic x

  11. Orla Jestin Reply

    So proud of you Sarah. You’ve done and continue to do so well x

  12. Breda Healy Reply

    So honest Sarah. Fair play to you. I have lost weight before only to gain it all back on again. I am going to join slimming world tomorrow as I am absolutely miserable in myself. Keep up the good work.

  13. Melanie O'Sullivan Fennell Reply

    Well done Sarah , very proud of you and your success, wishing you all the success in the world and great things for 2016 xxx

  14. Charlene Corkery Reply

    Sarah I cried reading your first post.you are so genuine and so many people can bond with you ..you go girl ❤❤❤

  15. Helen O'Connell Reply

    Your such an inspiration Sarah! I follow you on FB and Instagram and I love your posts! I love how genuine and honest you are! You honestly look so amazing and you can see the hard work you put in from your story and the pictures! Well done 🙂 xx

  16. “Answer me this, Why don’t you deserve it? Why shouldn’t you give yourself 1 hour out of 24 each day? Let that hour be for prepping food, researching foods, exercising, having you time, going for a walk.”….YES! that’s exactly what I need to hear. You’re an absolute inspiration Sarah. Keep you the fantastic work and THANK YOU for sharing your journey! x

  17. Ellen o Brien Reply

    Well done Sarah, what an achievement you have made, it’s such an inspiration to people trying to make changes in there lives. Loved reading your story, you are so brave and couragous for writing it. Looking forward to more blogs .Well done you xxx

  18. Your so beautiful in many ways .
    Listening to you 27 years and never get fed up of you???????????? love you x

  19. Your an inspiration Sarah your just so down to earth. By the way that big bird dress as you call it you were beautiful but if your not happyin your own skinno nice complements matter. Keep up the good work .

  20. I came across you some how on Facebook in mid 2015 and iv felt a connection straight away maybe because iv struggled with my weight for years also. Your an inspiration and I’m go greatful to you for sharing your story. And I love checking my snap chat and Facebook for your updates. I’m back on my slimming world journey too so here to staying on plan and getting rid of the weight once and for all. It’s gona be a great year. Well done and be proud of yourself.

  21. Fantastic read, well done Sarah….. Hopefully gonn giv on track this time myself keep up the good work xx

  22. I am so proud of you Sarah
    You are always beautiful
    Inside and out
    Love you xx

  23. Clare Jestin Reply

    I’m so proud of you Sarah, Well Done. Your story was so touching. ????

  24. Wow, what a genuine and inspiring read!! Really enjoyed your post.

    Well done on your weighloss and your many other schievements. X

  25. A genuine heartfelt read.. I’m following you a few months & watching ur success with interest… I was pregnant with no 4 when I came across your page on Facebook & all my life iv dealt with the struggles of losing weight… Today I started my own slimming world journey… Honestly, iv watched ur slimming world story & how easy u make it look and decided Iv nothing to lose.. Iv tried every diet going weight watchers, slimming world, the 3 day miracle diet, the 5:2 diet, slimming drops, starving myself but losing interest mid way… Iv about 3 & half stone to lose & im feeling positive… Wish me luck ????????

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